19 Ocak 2009 Pazartesi

avoidance once again


I am an untamed animal! And today I got sure that I can never get along with people... why? cos i am allergic to the incursion!
yess
no no
i feel a still life on a shelf when they get involved in my fucking alone life.. i want to think all by myself.. i dont wanna hear about them..
make them shut up!
make them turn their faces..
yeah your poignant stories dont bother me! cant you see?! i am not even answering!
but of no avail! ofcourse..
inordinate reactions huh?
no, actually i am not reacting at all.. i am not talkin at all..
you couldn't get it again...
decript pages, blighted beliefs, bleak voices, repantant looks..
they all are so fucking pernicious.... luring the memories burried in over there.. everywhere actually summoning unbearable faces faces?
no, just "one" actually.
dont try to cajole me, it is not gonna work. just make sure that you pulled the door firmly cos its broken for a while and you know that i hate leaving sometihings ajar.. like my heart.
have a nice day
unlike me.


grandma with granpa's şemsiye, pa is gone and ma is very sick now, and kirkor has broken the şemsiye recently. kirkor is named after pa.

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