13 minutes left, 3 months in real

From A Perfect Circle

Funny when things go wrong
I get tired of waking
For all the things I've loved before
I'm tired of breaking
Good things are far ahead, yeah
but my patience is shaking
Only 13 minutes left,
but is it worth waiting..

Would you care for me cause I'm tired
Tired of all this life
Would you care for me cause I feel like..

I've been cut inside

It's blatant to feel so wrong
to get hurt by the taking everything that
I've said before I hesitate saying
I'm crawling fast ahead, yeah
the pace that I'm making
Only 13 minutes left
but it's not worth waiting..

Would you care for me cause I'm tired
Tired of all this life
Would you care for me cause I feel like..

I've been cut inside

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So strange even to read, these feelings are so unknown, undefined, i'm so sorry Ş, i really tried hard but couldn't manage to comprehend, it's impossible for me to reconcile all these above with my concealed feelings.. Let me keep to ignore all, suppress all that are craving to rise to suface.
Thank you anyway.